Journey to Motherhood- Part 4

Why is it that I felt "infertility" was something that could never happen to me? I mean, it's not like my life is ever been "by the book"...so why should this!?

I personally dont like the word at all. It's so... well, very deserted sounding. Like my ovarys and uterus are just deserted pelvic placeholders....there to serve no real purpose! Ok, that's my irrational, negative side talking.

Finding out yesterday that the endometriosis I have wasn't just on my appendix (which has been removed)....but that it's made a permanent home on both of my ovarys...that's my excuse for my negative slip-up!


It was a surreal moment....laying on the table, getting ready for my "transvaginal" ultrasound....my first ever...

With Clint by my side, I couldn't help but to think how I wished that we were really there for the first look at our little baby growing inside. Instead, we got to take a look at my ovarys and all the cysts that have set up camp! Not an exciting site!


After a lot of talking and learning more then I ever thought I would know about the female reproductive system, we were left with a "plan". Certainly not the plan I was hoping for, but a plan nonetheless!

I was put on Norethindrone. It's like birth control...but more just a dose of a hormone that is used to regulate your period. It is also used to "treat" endometriosis. Our hopes and prayers are for the medicine to shrink the cysts. This will be the first step in many.

I keep playing this over and over in my head... that if my pain wouldn't have been so severe a few weeks ago...then I never wouldve had my appendix out...and I never would have known about the endo. I know what an incredible blessing it has been that we have even found all these "issues" that i have. I trust that God has a plan and that he is an almighty God and can do anything!

Mother's Day 2010 (and Mom & Brandon visit)

I had a special Mother's Day this year! Mom and Brandon came up on Thursday and stayed till Monday morning. We all got together at Amy's for homemade ice cream and cake. Laynie and Blake got to spend most of the day with us, so that was nice.
For Mother's Day Clint got me a pretty flower to sit on my new sink in the kitchen, Blake made me a clay boot (from school) and Laynie made me a very sweet card.
I love my two sweet kids!!!

Here's a pic of Laynie at Amy's... She's so beautiful!

The whole "gang".

Bobbie... so sweet!

Brandon, Jack and Blake playing with legos. Cute.

Mom and Brandon (making some crazy, creepy face).

Recent Projects in the works

I have SEVERAL projects on my list right now. Too many to admit!
Clint took me to The Rink in OKC a few weeks ago and I was in HEAVEN! If you are in OK, you HAVE to go....it's full of fun, funky treasures! I bought a few things....two of which are undergoing some color changes. First was this CaUte little chair...

I'm over red....so it's getting a fresh teal paint job! "After pics" will be posted soon.

Then I spotted this FABULOUS mirror (it's taped up for painting in this pic). It was only $24 and I had to have it. It's currently on it's 3rd coat of heirloom white spray paint!

This is a bad pic from my cell phone, but this is the new curtain/shower curtain that I have made for the kids' bathroom. That whole room is redone and I can't wait to post "after" pictures of it! All that's left to do is paint he cabinet doors!! YIPPEE! Clint has worked hard on it for me and it's just looking fab!

Another obsession of mine is chandeliers! There is practically one in every room! This beauty was bought for Laynie's room for $5!! This was the before (oops, starting spray painting it before I remembered to take a before pic).

So as you can see, I have a few projects going on....and these are just a FEW of them. The list goes on! I'll work on my "after" pics!

Lots to say!!

Seems as though 2010 is flying by! I have missed blogging a lot and really need to catch up! I figured I would lump a few things into this one post in hopes that will help me... so we'll see.

In April Clint and I celebrated our 4th wedding anniversary. Here he is opening his iPad that I got him. Totally posed, but still very funny. He loves that thing like crazy! I admit, it is pretty cool.

My anniversary gift was my new dining room table and buffet! I got it on Craigs list in Tulsa, and I can't wait to paint it and recover the seats! It's on the "to do" list! ;)

School is winding down! I am so excited to have the kids off for the summer. Maybe even more then they are! Laynie had her 7th grade concert last week. She sang a "solo" in the song "Raindrops Keep Falling on my Head". They did great and the concert was entertaining! I'm loving that the older the kids get the more interesting their productions are....nothing like they used to be! ;)

In other news...... we have finally started updating our kitchen!!! First order of business was to get rid of the 1970's WHITE TILE counter top! I chose a dark Formica "granite looking" top and Clint had it installed in ONE day! It looks fantastic and is so much nicer then the tile! I will have to take some "after" pics that include the new sink, faucet and stove top. They are all very nice.

Next up is the back splash, cabinet doors and a fresh coat of paint!!!

Here's Blake helping Dad out in the kitchen! He was the sawdust sucker-upper! ;)

Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday little man! Wow, you're three today... I can't even believe that! It really doesn't seem like you have been gone for a year and 1/2! You are still so present in my heart!

I wish I could hear you talk, and watch you play and discover new things. I wish I was throwing you a big birthday party! I bet you are a sweet boy. I bet you love on your sisters every day and are a wonderful little brother!

I'm sure your big sisters have been so good to you and have watched out for you.. I pray that all the time!

I hope you are taking care of little Cherry.

Be sweet to her, love her and play nice with her.

We miss you all the time.

We still laugh at the cute things you use to do.

We are going to blow out 3 candles for you tonight....and say a little prayer. Aunt Kerri said a prayer for you today... she misses you too.

We love you so much! Happy 3rd Birthday!

Your bouncy horse... you loved riding him. You weren't scared to get crazy on him! haha.

I loved when you decided that the bear and pig were your "babies". They had to go everywhere with you. It was so sweet to see you bond with them! I am glad I sent them to live with you. I hope they are still your "babies".


See..... bear and pig again! hee hee hee.

I loved to make you feel better when you were sick. Bless your heart, you were sick a lot! Here, you wanted your blankets and your paci while you ate. How could I say no?! I just made you snug in your highchair....and everything was better!

Be Still My Heart

As if I needed another reason to LOVE my iPhone!!